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Originally Posted by perpetuallysad
I have delusions constantly. Almost always caused by books, or could be an article, a news story or like someone else said even a picture. One of my great and horrible delusions is that I am somehow responsible for the fate of the entire world. This bears down on me so hard sometimes that I feel like I will stop breathing.
Most of the time my delusions are about being able to know just exactly what to do to change/fix some huge, widespread ail that's afflicting people or the world in general.
So ya, I get the delusions brought on by books. A lot of times it turns into a sort of obsessions where I will end up buying every book by a particular author or every book about a certain subject. I am certain I can figure out the problems of whatever and only I can fix them. (I feel really weird admitting to you all.)
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That's totally what happens to me! At least with regard to "fixing" the problem. And I never really realized it but these delusions are real (as in an actually occurring psychological phenomenon) and now I'm coming to understanding some of my illness. Basically, it seems, I'm more screwed up than I thought.
You know what else is a trigger for me? Smells. Really potent smells like rotting corn or orange scented cleaning supplies.