Huge insights you've made here Rap. We hope you are gentle with yourself after such realizations.

Thank you for sharing all of that with us. It give us a better idea of what you've gone through on your path here and what you're now struggling with.

Don't forget to look back over the time you've been here to see the changes you've been through in this time. You're definitely working on deeper issues with this stuff.

Fairness isn't a factor when it comes to how you feel. You feel as you feel.

Do take care.
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