Thank you so much everyone for all your kind words.

My family knows now and it has been one very stressful week.....
Monday night I was talking to my best friend about all of this and I told her it was okay to tell her mom because I love her mom and I trust her. Her mom was very supportive and told me she was here for me.
Then tuesday came around and I get tapped on the shoulder in lunch and its my best friend who was suppose to be in orchestra and my other friend standing there with my guidance consoler. Let me tell you, man was I scare because I knew what was happening. I get up and get my bag and my best friend tells me that her mom called school be she was concerned and wanted to make sure I got help sooner rather than later. So we walk down to our house(our high school has a house for every grade) and go into Miss Zielie's(school social worker) office with me and my two friends and Mr. Doyale(my consoler). We talk for about an hour and I was shaking the entire time just holding onto my best friends hand the entire time. Once it was time for them to call my parents I started to panic and breathe very fast and shake so bad. Mr. Doyale ask me how I felt and I told him...other than being scared to death it felt good to get it off my chest. Neither one of my parents picked up the phone so we waited for 15 minutes then they had to go to a meeting and we all went back to class. I went back during seventh period to see what my mom said and what was going to happen next. It turns out my mom reacted so much better than I thought she would. She even let me go to work which I was surprised about. Miss Zielie told me that my mom was taking me to the hospital the next day to be evaluated and then we talked for awhile.
Wednesday comes around and I leave school early to go to the hospital to be evaluated and I cried the entire way there. I was so nervous and I didn't know what was going to happen. Turned out that they just asked a lot of questions then call the on call psychologist to see what he recommends to do next. He told us that it was not severe enough for me to be taken out of school and put in a day program because that would do more harm than good at this point then he said that I needed to find a really good therapist. He gave us recommendations to two different places. Then I went back to school.
Thursday was my appointment with my therapist. I was not as nervous for this appointment as I was with the other. That whole process took almost two hours. She talked to me and my mom together first then she talked to my mom to get history and all the stuff like that and that took a long time. Then I talked to her for awhile by myself and she was a super nice person. We talked about the things I want to work on and so on. Then towards the end of the appointment she brought my mom back in and we talked about how often we should meet and scheduling and stuff. I am going once a week until things start to improve then I will go every other week. So I guess I will see what happens next week.
Right now I am not that optimistic because it a tall order to ask your family to change when this has been the way things have been going for so long. Old habits are hard to break. My biggest fear right now is that after a few days or weeks everything is just going to go right back to the way it was and this could be all for nothing.
I feel like everyone is tip toe-ing around everything and not saying much about anything. I feel like everyone is trying to act happy all the time. I would like to know what everyone thinks about all of this but my family does not talk that well. I am not asking for them to be happy all the time because we all know that no one is happy all the time and I am most definitely not. I don't want things to feel forced or fake I sincerely want things to change but in the right ways.
I will have to wait and see what the future holds because I am done trying to predict what will happen because I am always so wrong. I am just taking it day by day and hoping for the best to happen.
I will keep you all updated on how things are going.
Thank you all so much for caring.
Much love
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