My brother is 15.
We share a room (i know it's ilegal, but we get around it, and it's better than sharing with my 17 year old sister, which i can't do now because her bf has moved in with us.) and besides being best friends also, we make music, write songs, play gigs together.

Until recently. I realise he's growing up. He keeps standing me up, leaving me to go see other people. I feel so betrayed. He told me to get my own friends. I invited a girl i know online to stay with us (don't know if you read the crazy post, but if you did then you'll know her and my brother slept together lots) and i got left out. So whats the point of making my own friends if they all want to be with him instead?

The band have been getting loads of gigs recently, and today, i'm not sure what really happened inside of me, but he came home about dinner time after staying out the whole weekend, me not knowing where he is. And i was so mad. I can't take this rejection- from everyone else, yes, but him!? After my mother had gone, and my ex boyfriend had gone, he took me. He gave me a bit of hope that a relationship can happen. And we got on so well.

Now he does everything without me. We were sorting out a set list for tonight...and i didn't like it. So i used it as an excuse to get in a huffy.I told them i wasn't playing tonight, and they made a new set- he's singing some of my songs. They're playing a gig right now without me.

I am sad.