The sad sinking feeling is just not going away...I feel so upset that I can't enjoy anything now...It all seems so dull and unappealing the movies don't interest me, not even the regular t.v shows I enjoyed... Fast food like Pizza and KFC have become predictable and music seems so annoying even the big hits I fell in love with... Thanks to my mature adult behaviour I have managed to guess what is bothering me and I think it must be the online friend whom I depend on emotionally...I have continued to have breaks before reaching out to her but I became fearful that she'd be annoyed with this approach... I dont know why I think that cos she's been very maternal this whole time apart from the fact that she is never the first one to reach out... It's always been me who reaches out to her first and then she takes me on her wing so last night I told her how i felt about it... I was extra careful to be polite so she wouldnt be offended cos I can really open up to her and I didnt want to screw up...I have been feeling scared and even more low cos of the fear that she may have been unhappy with my post....She hasnt replied yet and my fear is getting worse...