Thank you so much for sharing...I have the similar experience of one that wants us to end it, sometimes plaguing my thoughts that it blocks all else...hard to continue on those days. Please know that you are not alone in your battle. Keep striving for survival, it will be worth it. Life is amazing as you know. Strengthen your armour for deflection of negativity, but leave it permeable to emitting love to your saboteur. Please keep sharing with us...
In love and peace,
kp