So When I told T how I hear and see crowds screaming and fighting and outright chaos, T says this is me having split of and projected outward and then it feels as if its coming back to me fragmented and each fragment holds as much fear as the original fear that I split off. OK, what is this in plain english? I will talk to T about it next week, but I just realised, I dont really know exactly how that happens and how it works, its like some sort of magic trick, a trick of the eye. But it fits and thats just how I experience the world, as chaotic and frightful and to think its coming from me? how? wouldnt I know? obviously not.