I find it somewhat unusual/alarming that you would phrase your therapy as "I had her twice a week". You had therapy sessions twice a week, not the therapist... Perhaps it is just a turn of a phrase and nothing more.

That notwithstanding, what exactly did you want suggestions on? Why is there an urgency to your request?
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Why did you think you had to get rid of your therapist?

Even if there is a profound underlying sadness and pain, IMO there are boundaries on what we should and should not give ourselves permission to do.