I use to cut to help but I'm trying to stop. I feel so stressed over it all. I've been getting maybe 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night. My meds make me sleep. But once a nightmare starts I'm deep in it I start kicking, screaming, punching, scratching, when adam trys to wake me I tend to open my eyes and think its my rapist there in my room Adam said I start yelling for him to come and get my rapist out of my room to save me and not let him hurt me again. I work my self up so much I pass out. When I "wake up" from passing out I'm up for the night. I have to make sure all the blinds are closed the doors are locked. It hasn't been this bad since the weeks following the actual rape. Like I said I'm ready to give up on sleep all together.