I know the feeling--cutting used to help me, too. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I'm glad you've got someone there to care for you. How stressful. Did something set this off suddenly? Have you been under more stress lately?

For me one thing that helps is changing something about my sleep pattern. Sometimes sleeping on the couch helps kick me out of a bad sleep cycle. Sometimes taking a different med for a few days helps. Sometimes I stay up for a day and then take my meds and I am so beat that I can finally sleep.

It's not fair that you have to struggle with this.