I know what set it off. I went to the mall to have time for myself. It was the first time in years. He was there he followed me and I came home. I left yesterday to see my T. But here I am. On the couch in my pjs completely shut off from the world. He raped me on my birthday january 20th. So January is always hard. I feel like I've been hit with a double whammy with year. I'll try sleeping on the couch tonight maybe it will help. Thanks for your advice. I'm sorry you half to go through it too.