{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Grace}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I know how you feel! Can I tell you my secret? Purpose in your heart and mind that what "they" think doesn't matter... and it really shouldn't. You can't live the rest of your life based on what "they think." Don't give them the power to decide for you what YOU are going to think or how YOU are going to act, much less feel!
That's not to say that it's an easy task, because it's not. It takes lots of work and practice. I'm to the point that if I feel judged by one or many, I close my internal eyes so that I don't see it. Same goes for too much or not enough. It's THEIR problem, THEIR opinion, whatever. It's left outside of
myself. If someone comes on too strong with their "support," *I* am the one that evens out the playing field. The response is middle of the road... or, taking charge, "evening out" the playing field. It's YOUR "game," Sweet Grace. Play it by YOUR rules.
I'm so happy that you found the courage to sing in public again! KUDOS to you!! You're not hiding your light under a bush! YOU go, Lady!
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.