I don't know what to call it.... I don't want to sound like I am complaining... Seems I've been doing a lot of that lately...... Just it is soooooooo hard to see the light when so much is wrong...........

I don't know what to do anymore......... I try and I try talking to my son and it is always tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow......... Well I should say a good thing is my son is after me to write a resume for him which is good because it is about time he does some job searching. He is bored because , since I've been here, "grins" his friends aren't coming over everyday to play video games and drink............

I am working on a resume for him but it will only be a draft because I know nothing about computer language and he wants an entry programming position... SO, I suggested he pay a professional to write a final resume.......

But the thing is, I went upstairs to search for the mtg papers and I found a notice that my son's license is suspended for non payment of a fine..... When does it stop?????? I can say he mentioned to me that he thinks he is depressed and I said I'd search for a T. Me searching for a therapist is about as good as AJ looking for a job... I am at a loss... We can't afford another therapist/counselor like we had many years ago.. Basically because he wasn't a "good" T and did not help and we were too stupid at that time to know any better as to look for another T....The whole thing about going to therapy is sooooooooo scary... Who do we trust? How do we know for sure he can help?

SO, as usual, AJ is sleeping and it is 3pm...There are things he could be doing like getting the info his dad needs to try to refinance this "white elephant" of a house.......Would be nice if he opened his mail because when I was searching for the mtg papers there were months of electric bills, water bills and cable/tv bills........... Stacks of unopened mail included the one from the court saying AJ license has been suspended which was dated middle of December........

Throws hands up in the air.........Am tired of talking to a tree... And should the "tree" happen to hear what I am saying, the "tree" flips out and gets mad........ No win situation.......



I don't know why AJ's dad, AJ and I can't all sit at a table and talk about what the situation here is, what needs to be done, what needs to happen, and how we ALL can work "together" to make what is wrong right????????

AJ's dad says he will talk to AJ yet he doesn't/ I try talking to AJ and AJ only ignores me, or says he is busy and we can talk later, or he flips out at me. Crosses fingers as he hasn't flipped out at me since he broke the microwave in December.... I don't know why we can't ALL talk and work together........................ Sounds too easy maybe... But I honestly feel if communication lines were "OPEN" we could resolve much that has been going wrong here...................