Yesterday I celebrated my second full year of sobriety at my local AA meeting. I received my two year token as well as a beautiful Pointsettia plant for the occasion. you are so right about my self-esteem issues. I'm working on it a day at a time. Trouble is, you're not going to believe it, my ex wanted to go to the A.A. meeting with me and I agreed. So we sat at the same table. I looked across to where he was sitting and saw what a dusturbed man he is. I felt so guilty, I could barely take it. After the meeting he said if I left him for good, I might hear one day that he died in his apartment because he doesn't want to be without me. Now I'm really afraid he might do something stupid. He scared me even more when later he told me he often imagines he and I dying together and how nice it would be if we could leave this world together so than neither of us had to live without the other one. How can I deal with something like that? I've been in shock ever since he told me these things.

No one in my family knows I'm seeing him. I don't know if he's just talking or if he might actually do something to himself or to me if things don't go his way. Do I keep playing along with him and make him believe there's a chance for us so he won't go over the edge or do I just cut him out of my life and hope he won't do anything crazy?