Been watching dvds on my laptop but still wide awake and still have a headache (took paracetamol earlier but it didn't help).

I told my friend about the crisis team etc, but now she's not replied again so I'm a bit worried I freaked her out. When I was really low back in July she came over here with her flatmate (who I know) and one of our other friends at 1am and they all sat and asked me millions of questions while I panicked. That was just because I had been self harming... so now that I'm having suicidal thoughts god knows what she's thinking.

Bit concerned that I have no appetite what so ever- have lost several pounds in the last week just because I haven't been eating properly. Today I only had bread and butter for lunch and a biscuit. Slept through dinner and had no breakfast. Then there's the little voice in my head that says I'm too fat anyway, so that's all I should be eating. Have enough issues without adding food to that list.

Aargh. Why won't my head stop pounding? It hurts