But I'm NOT safe... that's part of the problem, I'm impulsive, and the only reason I haven't done anything yet is because I haven't had transportation when I'm impulsive.
I'm not going to quit anything without talking with a dr/someone... I've thought of taking myself off it, but I know better.
I guess I hold out in fear of making a move... fear of the results if I fail... I avoid hope with all my strength of self-protection. Hope fails. I don't know why I bother.