It's good to know that I am not the only one with these feelings of wanting to slip. Lately, I've been erally depressed because of my boyfriend and nervous because of college and just so many things on my mind. I get the constant comments about how "healthy" i look. I still haven't started my period and it has almost been a year since I stopped. right now, I just don't care. I've almost given up on it ever coming back. the only thing keeping me going is playing soccer in college. I am terrified of becoming overweight even though I know that the weight i am picking up is muscle. I am still having these out of control cravings at night to eat and eat, even though it is healthy foods. I just feel so out of control and i hate this feeling! When I was in the midst of my disorder, i was able to control everything. I hate this!!!!!