It might be good to ask your self exactly why you are planning this, why so badly, and if the crisis team is really going to be so angry? It sounds like your inner pressure is just racking up, but see if you can't try something other than SI to handle it, OK? Hey, you're here, so you have at least one hand on the keyboard and your eyes on the screen... Huggs, dear. Wish i could make the pain go away just for a bit.