Thanks for checking in on me _zh; I appreciate it.

I am doing ok considering I guess. I have a new love in my life which has helped somewhat. I am flooded with memories that I had pushed down for a long time. I have relived a lot of torture lately.

I am still not quite sure of my ability to go through with testifying. I am actually meeting with the DA later today to discuss it. My biggest fear is that I will get on the stand and be a little girl again not able to speak. Just seeing his picture in the paper was beyond hard; I can’t imagine seeing him sitting in front of me.