Thank you for your kind words, and yes I do to some extent feel as though her letter to me was retaliation. She knows me well enough to know that despite my actions I have a kind heart and am a very sensitive person.

I think the thing that hurst the most is that I am judged solely based upon the mistakes I made. I am not judged at all for my good qualities which I know are many.

But, I guess that is the reality now. That is how she sees me, and in fact that is how I see myself. ths was the whole point of this post.

I think that she wants me out of her life. She wants me gone. And, she wants me to feel that I have nothing to live for.