i assume that people will hate me off the bat. I assume I'm annoying and boring and not anything interesting at all.
i was just in the chat room and i told someone not to be rude and everyone told him not to worry about it, to be himself...... and i just totally felt HORRIBLE. I felt like such an annoying big thing bothering people and i just felt so stupid and knew that everyone wanted me out of the chat room.

i know it probably wasn't that big of a deal, really. but now i just feel so... ughhhh and i don't understand why i hate myself so much. And i worry other people hate me as much as i hate myself.

so. awkward.