Life.... is life and what it means based on what others have told you to believe or is it shiat just waiting to hit the fan? - and usually when one least expects it.

Sorry for this side of me, but I am in a dark place right now and I am tired of not knowing merely because everything we ever put our trust in is based on another - what another has said... from childhood, to school, to church, to friends, from love and our spouses.

WHY cant we just know the truth from with in us?