My name is wing and I am new to a forum not sure quite how this works for this is my first time.

I know what its like to feel lost inside your own thoughts. I know what it is like not knowing how to make a decision. I know what it feels like not being able to move outside my front door sometimes not even being able to move from the bed to the shower.

Through my recovery and believe me its been hell to say the least.\I had to danced with the devil many times, but i still lead this dance no matter how many times he tries to take me down. I found through my travels that makiing connections with people is the key.

Years ago i spent days nights weeks years, online in chatrooms talking endlessly looking for a connection to make me whole again. I made many internet friends but lost connection with my own family in the process. It took my uncle to take me out one day when i was going through a divorce he said you can't allow depression to get the best of you, so he brought me to a singles dance. Music was my savior. I hit the dance floor like a skater for i was a former freeystyle skater I just danced my own way didn't connect with anyone just did my own thing it was a high. A natarul high but when i stopped dancing i was faced with a room full of strangers, everytime asking me questions where do i work what do i do, wanna hook up I couldn't take it.

So i went back on the dance floor. I would dance the night away just to avoid people. I was good at that for i was use to being on stage as a kid. I put on quite a show too. I did have one friend that would come with me she did the same thing.

Until one day a man came to me on the dance floor and said can i have this dance well i said if you can keep up you can, and I floated off to the other side. Well Brian stayed with me no matter where i was in the room he stuck with it. We danced the night away, but when we got outside to talk i crumbled. I was so messed up I couldn't make a sentence straight. But he took me home that night and held me close and told me we would be just cuddle buddies. Finally somebody held me just a solid hold thru the night

Today Brian is now Sara a long funny funny story i am looking forward to sharing with you all.

The point of the story is we are human and we are not suppose to be alone but sara taught me in order to have a friend you have to be a friend. So after 8 years sara has been a friend and now I have made connections in the real world to the point i am speaking on behalf of mental illness at the state house, to holding down a job and finally after being lonely my entire life i am whole again. So I know telling everyone that it does get better knowing that nobody would believe it or feel like it i not going to say that. What I am going to say is that you have the power in your own thoughts to change its up to you, but its the art of friendship and FAITH that keep the human race going

So again Hello to all my new friends and even though its hard keep smiling eventually you will start to feel that smile inside your heart. Now will someone show me how to work this forum i am really lost LOL

Keep Smiling
Wingdreamer