Hi shatteredmirror and all inside. I think it's great that this has been writen. It takes a lot to let T's read how you feel inside. It's a big step I think in the right direction. I think everyone needs a chance to be heard. Even if they are mean or upsetting. They are all still a part of you and need a voice. I think T will understand that and needs to understand how everyone feels inside. I know it's scary to hand over what has been writen. But if you feel comfortable then all means let T read. If you are still unsure about T reading it at this moment, then just hold onto it for a later session. It's like dipping your toe into the pool, cold at first, but can feel better after you jump in. I've been in treatment for 5 and a half years and still finding "pieces" that are now feeling comfortable enough now to write or come to sessions. It takes a lot to build trust. Take as much time as you need. Like my T has said in the past. It took years of abuse to be the way I am now. It's going to take years to straighten everything out. Much Luck to you. It sounds like you are moving forward. Sending you good thoughts, Monty