Hello,
And I thought I was alone. Actually I know there are many but sometimes we feel like we are the only one's that feel like that. You have courage just to go into a chat room. Sometimes I go but leave quick because I always feel like an odd ball. It is an awful feeling to want to mix in but your mind goes blank and you can't socialize. This passed New Years Eve many people from the Church came to the house to celebrate but as soon as they started coming in I withdrew to my room and shut the door. I just could not think about what to say. I just didn't connect with anyone. I wish you success with your social barriers. If you ever find something that works let me know so I can try. Peace - Dennis
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Originally Posted by aimeesh
i assume that people will hate me off the bat. I assume I'm annoying and boring and not anything interesting at all.
i was just in the chat room and i told someone not to be rude and everyone told him not to worry about it, to be himself...... and i just totally felt HORRIBLE. I felt like such an annoying big thing bothering people and i just felt so stupid and knew that everyone wanted me out of the chat room.
i know it probably wasn't that big of a deal, really. but now i just feel so... ughhhh and i don't understand why i hate myself so much. And i worry other people hate me as much as i hate myself.
so. awkward.
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