I also saw your thread about verbal abuse. Throwing an ED at you certainly is a form of abuse, and abusers often are or seem to be remorseful after being abusive.

In thinking about whether to continue your relationship with him, keep in mind that your child is going to learn what is "normal" in relationships by observing how you and your boyfriend interact.

Do you have a T who could help you think about why ED might seem to make you feel happy?