I finally realised that I drink to get rid of my problems like now I am having a drink and feeling even worse than what I did before and yet I want more I want to drink so much that I go numb and don't feel the pain, so I guess that make me a bad person then, %#@&#! I can't believe that I am 20 years old and that I have severe depression and a drinking problem on top of it, I never thought that I did cause all the people around me drink as well but lately I have coome to realise that I do and all it does is add to my depression and yet all i can think of is how do I get more luckily I only have one drink now but would like more and I have no more and all the bottle stores are closed now so good for me then I guess, problem is this weekend I know I will get really drunk or take drugs I am trying not to but it just seems like it is not meant to be, my life has hit a really bad patch right now and I only now of two things that will make it better.