Well...

Burbitine is right. You probably shouldn't go looking for these sites. What is seen cannot be unseen.

Sorry, Moot, I am breaking rule one and rule two. But he started it.

4 chan, 7 chan and 12 chan are image boards. You can post comments but it is not necessary that comments are logical or true. 12 chan is Japanese. 4 chan is in the English language. 7 chan - I forget. The only thing that is off limits is pics of child pornography although discussion and drawings are okay. Posts are anonymous and discussions often bizarre. 4chan was in the news when an anonymous poster posted several times about his plans to bomb the Superbowl. I guess he didn't quite know how an IP address works. The FBI didn't like his sense of humor apparently and off to jail he went. Moral: Don't mess with football. The best thing about 4 chan is Caturday which became the internet phenomenon now known as LOL cats.

Now ED and the hat? Not a clue.

Burbitine, I hope you understood what I meant when I said find a better site I mean get rid of 4 chan not Psychcentral.

If you take advice from people at 4 chan you are going to have some life problems. Dude, reality versus fantasy - find it!

You will find Psychcentral full of support and suggestions when you are ready to make some changes. But until you understand that what you are currently doing is not working well and you want to change your thoughts and/or behaviors nobody here or anywhere else in the world can help you. You need to find this in yourself.

I don't know you well but some of the things you have said remind me of my son between the ages of fourteen to eighteen. Along with other mental illnesses my son had oppositional defiance disorder. The only thing that worked with him was when I had all I could take when he was eighteen and I implemented tough love. Basically you don't have to appreciate me but you have to respect me. If you cannot maintain acceptable behaviors leave my house.

Read this link for information and self help for oppositional defiance disorder.

Back to the problem with your therapist. It is time to get real. Talk to your therapist about how you felt when she upset you and how you made the poor choice of trying to offend her so badly that you would push her away. Apologize.

Perhaps you should see a different therapist if you cannot develop a therapeutic relationship with her. I don't know.

A favorite quote: No matter how far you have gone down a wrong path, turn back.