Thanks. Yes, I've been seeing him for 5 years now. He knows me in and out. He'd like me to be feeling though. He'd like me to be communicating with someone. Without communication, I lose my reality check, as he puts it. He says I'm spending too much time thinking about the future. Said that sounds strange to say to me because he's usually telling me just the opposite, I'm spending too much time in the past. But right now it's the future that I'd like to avoid. So when I think of anything right now, I just numb out. Not a very functional coping mechanism. It won't work for long. It will come back to bite me in the b*tt. I don't really care right now I guess.