I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I've been there so often. I don't cut...but retain such feelings of guilt & shame. But I have learned that there is more to me than my appearance.

Cymbalta and menopause BOTH are clobbering my efforts to keep off weight. I am loosing now. Slowly. But what an effort it is. GADS!!!! I havta just remind myself to take one itty bitty day at a time.

My brother took his own life in January. I still have not accepted it. I keep thinking..."Why"..& "what if" or "If only."
Years ago..when I was still living at home..I was the "fixer". I watched over my younger brothers like a mother hen. I wish I could have been there to stop him. It replays in my mind over & over. Very hard not to think of it.

Please don't hurt yourself. OK?!

~Dottie