I agree with fayerody. You're NOT a bad person because you drink alcohol. If that were the case, most of us would be bad people and we're all really not. You have a problem with alcohol (and it seems like drugs are a problem too). That doesn't make you bad, it makes you human. We all have problems, yours is alcohol and drugs. I'd suggest what fayerody suggested, try finding a support group. Stay away from those "friends" who bring booze around and drugs around. Maybe even get into rehab, it may do you some good. Find SOMETHING positive to take place of the alcohol and drugs or it won't work. You can't lose something you use as a coping mechanism and not having something equally as good to replace it.

I wish you the best.