he wont go to that stuff since we do not go to a "normall" church on a regural basis.. We are sorta getting marreid by a precher that has her license but she does not preach at a church that has Sunday masses and all that jazz..

I wanted to go to pre-marital counsuling but he says we dont have any porblems.. (ya right) .. it is all in my head and I will just have to deal with it like I did today..
This will blow ove like all the other little tiffes we have and I will go on in life like I normally do cause it is all part of me.. Not him.. lke normall..

I am not meant to be happy I have seen my futher and it is just like it is now.. Safe sound and with someone who will put up with my ********.