kd,

I hear what you are saying. To you it is new. As new as the day you found out. It is a fresh pain. People can't understand how a person can feel such intensity from something that happened "so long ago". But it's not so long ago when the information is new.

I wish I had a magic answer to make it go away. The best I can offer is that it will get less as the time passes. As you talk to T it will get less.

Monty is absolutely right in that you have no reason for shame. None. That doesn't make it go away I know but it is the truth.

You face these people as you always have with strength and bravery. Secure in the knowledge that you are a survivor in the greatest sense of the word.

Take care kd.

Always here for you.

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