I'm nervous about my session on Thursday. I have only seen my T once in two months and we are going back to weekly appointments since my grad loans came in. But I'm really nervous. I'm scared because there are all these things that came up while I was off and I just pushed them down into a box like I'm used to and I don't want it to blow up in my face. I'm worried that if I start dealing with it again it will become overwhelming. I wish that I could wait and just have one session that is really relaxed and kind of easing back into it and I've seen other people here say that they have done that and it worked well, but I have one thing that I need to deal with that I don't know if it can wait another week as it has to do with my grandpa's death and he is really really sick. I just have so many things I feel like I need to write them all down so I don't forget.

-I'm scared that my therapist is going to be angry with me for not having the money to see her the last two months. And I'm really good with saving my money and everything.
-I've been having panic attacks that are new.
-I've been having nightmares and being unable to sleep.
- I'm totally stressed out about my grandpa and traveling for his funeral.
-Stuff with the new semester at school.
-All the regular crap.
-I'm just scared.

I'm just stressed out and this week seems to be going soooo slowly.

Someone please say something. . .