{{{{{ kimmy }}}}}
I'm sorry you are feeling this.
Shame is a tough one to deal with.
There is healthy shame and there is toxic shame.
I wear my toxic shame like a cloak.
You can read more at:
http://www.soulselfhelp.on.ca/tshame.html
Hope you find peace.
Petunia
(I fixed the link, it didn't work before)