I called and left a message for my new dr....and did not get a call back.

I found that as the day went on, the agitation lessened in severity - BUT a mother of all migraines was on the way.

I followed the dr's initial instructions by taking the new meds....and capped out. Then, right before group T, I took my "rescue med"....

NOTHING was helping. The migraine became so incredibly severe last night that I couldn't stand it. I was writhing in pain and resorted to taking narcotic pain meds (my old meds) just to ease the intensity. It took the edge off, but I am suffering. Really suffering.

Needless to say, I am not a happy camper. Not only do I feel like I 'failed' in keeping to the new meds only, but I feel defeated because I cannot function when in so much pain. I cannot take care of my daughter, be a good mom, get to work, perform my work duties, etc. while dealing with such severe pain. Considering my job is already on thin ice, it's just not a good time to be dealing with this kind of situation.

On top of that, I'm feeling quite defeated overall in life right now. The depression is starting to get the best of me. Between my job, my ex, the migraines, my life and the emptiness, lonliness, and misery.....

And on top of that, my T made mention in group about my "trust and comfort" issues - wondering if I'm taking an active role or just simply hoping it improves with time/experience. How about, this is as good as it friggin gets for me?