I was told that nice girls don't get angry. So internalized it like you did. When I internalized my anger, over the years it turned into depression. My buddy died in Iraq last summer. When I was notified, I got angry, I did not want to grieve yet again. Just gathered up my 90 day med supply & gobbled 'em up. Woke up in an ambulance & hearing "we got a pulse back". I will never do that again.I now know that everybody gets angry. We were created that way to protect ourselves from abuse and injustice. Angeris a necessary emotion Most people do not know a healthy way to express it. Your T can help you with that. When I look at my mom's behavior I see a woman who told me nice girls don't get angry while she's raging at me...so, lets look at it this way, you can love & honor your mom & dad, yet allow yourself to be angry with their behavior. They are not their behavior. It says honor your mother & father, not make yourself sick. The best way to honor them is expressing your anger in a healthy way. Make sense?