Everytime I fall in love I become depressed. I sabotage relationships by pushing the men away. Everything can be so perfect, and I just push the man away. I am trying to understand why, and how I can stop myself. I am totally falling in love with this perfect man, we are in our 30s and he is wonderful. I have been feeling emotional, and sad. I am happy to be with him, but I am afraid of getting hurt. Can anyone give some advice or insight? Thanks.