Hi loveperfect99,

I agree with NuckingFutz, in that you should see a T. After some time, smart occasional Q's, and trust develops you ought to develop a better understanding of where you are psychologically.

My personal experience is a tendency to push people away when they're getting too emotionally close. I can't bear the thought of being alone, but also can't bear the misery of another heartache. Up and down. Typical borderline personality disorder characteristic. You can check out the information on BPD when you click the link: Conditions & Disorders on the top of the page.

Best wishes to you!