After many medications and many therapists, I found this old saw to be true: If it is to be, it it up to me. That said, treatment tools such as therapy and medications are useful. In my case I was told I had a personality that is not conducive to therapy. Just the same I learned something from each of them.

Too, however, I have now fully accepted the fact that my choices, my functioning and my well-being are my responsibility. Instead of seeking the perfect medication, or the therapist that can read my mind, I have assumed the lead roll in pursuing a higher level of functioning.

Perhaps, you now realize what your commitment must be too. Good luck.