(((lonely52)))

I can understand how you're feeling. It is hard & complicated with children. In my personal experience, I've noticed our children much more accepting of the divorce than I have ever been. It took a long time for me to accept my marriage to be over ~ a good year after separation began. I still struggle with the realities in my life at times. But, my fear of screwing up my girls anymore than I may have already is what motivates me to continue to try doing my best. That's all I can do. Sometimes it isn't enough for me, and those are my very low points.

Exercise helps me avoid major depression overriding my life. I've also picked up activities to enjoy (alone and with others) ~ baking, fishing, watching team sports, nature, word search puzzles, etc. Keeping myself busy does help a lot. I highly recommend it!

Very best wishes to you. I hope that the misery subsides as you develop healthy ways to spend your free time. Take care!