He has said before that the more he sees the easier it will get. Today is the day after a big episode of the anger straight into the severe depression and I feel strange talking with him today. I don't want to push anymore so I'm sort of retreating. I know I shldnt do that either but I'm so tired now that I don't feel like talking either and he is off to do some of the things that got me going yesterday. I'm not sure how to feel about things today.