Tarantism,
Thanks for trusting yourself to put your fears out there. I think you are very articulate in the way you express yourself. As far as feeling you are crazy to be quite honest it's the "normal" people that scare me.
I just want you to know that PyschCentral is a Safe generally speaking and people care about others here, use that gut feeling and thanks for sharing and know I have your back!
Oh by the way...

to PC

(hope that made you smile) Hang in there and I hope to see you around... Later,

ThaCrew