I saw T today. First of all, thank you to everyone who talked some sense into me last night. I told T everything today, and it went relatively well.

When I told her about the suicide attempt, she seemed concerned, but it wasn't horrible. I got through it. After we discussed it a bit more, she was briefly highlighting the good things about me, I guess. So in all that she concluded with "you're an adult...in the end, you get to choose whether you want to live or not."

I just kind of paused for a minute, confused. Okay, I get the whole unconditional positive regard and the "empowerment" deal, but really? She's basically telling me it's okay if I choose to kill myself? It made me wonder if she even cares whether I die or not. I mean, there was nothing. I felt like she just dismissed it. Kind of like "well, whatever you want to do...I don't care."

So really, does she not care what happens to me?