Hi everybody,

Thank you all for your responses. I think the feeling is not so much boredom, but some kind of resistance to the momentum I need to move forward in my self definition. The energy needed is huge and I don't have it right now. I like the idea of sort of regrouping with T and talking about the way forward for me but it will be like punching my way out of paper bag. I also think that there is a need to fill my life with other things but I'll have **** or get off the pot as they say. I am also struggling with this depression and the fatigue that accompanies it. It's all part of this package.
I'll see what I can come up with tomorrow in T and let you all know.