(((((((rainbow))))))))

I'm sorry this is going on in your life, hon. It's extremely unfortunate that your H can't support you in your healing.

With that I would like to say: you come first. You are doing nothing wrong by seeking help, and by wanting to help yourself heal. Honestly, he should learn to deal with that, and he should be proud of you, more than anything, that you are trying to get help.

You can't make him understand anything about therapy or anything else, so do what you have to do, and do what you know is right for you. Who knows you better than you, right?

I hope everything goes well for you, hon.