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Originally Posted by Burbitine
Youre talking to the "victory at any costs kind of person" I would seek to win at any costs.
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yeah, but that's wrong and i think you know that.
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I have had a very hard life, I've been cheated on, betrayed, disgraced, humilated and ive done this to other people. Anyway i might have abadonment issue. My best friend for 7 years had abadoned me.
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i'm sorry for the things you have gone thru. i really am. but it in no way gives you an excuse to act violently toward anyone. everyone on the planet has been hurt in life. it's how you treat others that counts.
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I do want to know what hurt her. Apparently i threatened her. I dont want her thinking that i am some pathetic ***** who cant hold a threat.
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you said you told her you knew her personal info from searching her on the net. i'm sure that was threat enough. now you need to leave it alone.
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I am a vengeful person at times. You know what i can be a kind thoughtful person to.
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you won't win any friends by being vengeful. you need to stop and consider the consequences of your potential actions.
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YOU Know what the Head T said to me. My T wants to go back to work with me. She actually asked when i would go back in the good way. As in she wants to work this out with me after i pretty much tore her to pieces.  Why?
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she sounds like a nice person and she cares about you as a therapist. don't test her or take that for granted.
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I feel horrible about what i did but i would rather have her attack me. I have problems with attacking people. I am much more like a "overwhelming retaliation of force" kind of person.
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you need to deal with your hurt and stop focusing on retaliation. it's ok to be vulnerable. there are people who you can be safe with. not everyone is out to hurt you or be mean to you. how you treat others largely determines how they will treat you. if someone wrongs you let it go and move on. no, that isn't easy but if you let this anger rule you you will end up in jail. do you really want that??
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But i might feel like having a personal relationship with my T. I want to know about her.
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it's a professional relationship. it's ok to have a crush on her but that is as far as it can go. if that is too distracting for you then it would be best to switch to a male T.
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I want for her to care for me. Sue me for wanting to have a beautiful sexy kind woman care for me. I know this isnt the way to go around it. Its like the "You want the oppisite after what you have done"
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it sounds like she does care about you but you need to stop testing her NOW. if you don't there is no way she'll want to continue to work with you.