It sounds like you're really going through a lot, and that you have been through a lot. For that, I con honestly say I understand to some extent, and I'm sorry that you've had to suffer in the way which you have.

However, taking your life's toil out on your T, who is trying to help you, isn't very productive. I get being angry with your T, maybe even being a little bit snappy, but unleashing your entire arsenal of insults on her is taking it WAY too far. You have to remember, she is a person too. How would you feel if she purposefully insulted you the way you insulted her?

I think anger management could be a good thing for you. I would definitely encourage you to apologize and attempt to make things right with your T. I'm sure whatever happened, she did not intend to hurt you. T's are humans too, and they make mistakes at time.

I sincerely hope that you are able to work this out, and handle things in a more safe, productive manner in the future.