I just wanted to say I don't mean to scare anyone or make anyone upset. I wish I could just be normal...and I thank you for giving me the opportunity and support to "sort" things out here on the forum.
I know tonight will be tough. I have to face my fears...I have to just be open with my T. No matter what..I have to get this darkness out of me.

I was honest with my gf on how I have been feeling. And that I had a time line and planned on "leaving" this August 23rd. I even scheduled the 23rd off from work like 2 weeks ago. I told her that too.
I don't mean for anyone to personalize what is going on in my head.
I just need compassion, a hug here and there and someone to watch over me quietly to be sure I make it through.
I am not out of the woods yet...but I am closer to the perimeter of safer land.