So, you know that group T has been a struggle for me. I've pretty much resigned to the fact that I'm involved in group, am building skills, providing support and feedback...but I am less inclined to share my own "stuff".
One of the group members posted on our blog about how he's frustrated with me because I don't trust group...that he's known me for a year and I won't share some things with him.
I don't think I know how to trust....And I've already been burned in group - and even though we've worked towards repairing that damage in group - it's hard for me to feel safe there.
The exchange with this member is helping me to realize that I have some serious trust issues overall (even though I think it's valid in this group situation).
I feel as though I was not borne into a trusting environment, and have been burned so many times in my life that trust just doesn't happen. I can't even say that I trust my T....or myself....or anyone.
I said that I would work on it, but it scares me because I don't feel as though I have the tools to know how.
Can anyone relate? Or has anyone had this experience and conquered it?
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